I need other trans/nb/genderqueer people in my life. i can’t talk to anyone about disphoria cuz no one fucking gets it anyway. i just want someone to understand. i want someone that i can be myself around without getting bombarded with questions. sometimes i just don’t have the energy to educate everyone. i just want there to be someone in my life that is like me. that understands how shitty it feels to be constantly misgendered, and to have even close friends use the wrong pronouns, and brush it off with a “whatever” when you correct them. sometimes i don’t have the energy to correct them. i hate myself when i don’t correct them, i feel like I’m lying by not saying anything. I hate to say it but sometimes i even misgender myself out loud by accident and i hate it so much. i feel like a liar, and its so confusing and it fucks me up. i feel like a freak all the time. I’m just so exhausted with being me i don’t want to do it anymore.
dysphoria rant
